Instant Dopamine

10:15 PM

If you've read my previous post, you'll know that I've been struggling with adult life a lot lately.

Yes, I'm still struggling. I'm starting to enjoy it (just want to stay grateful for what I have), but this life still isn't what I expected to have.

This time is the hardest time of my life.

If you don't know me; I'm the kind of person who always try to be grateful at everything, stay positive at everything, and love my life so much.

But currently, living a day is already hard to me; I'm waking up sad in the morning, knowing that I need to do what I have to do, and still not getting what I want to get.

Everything seems so wrong, everything seems so negative, it's kinda hard to see something in positive side again.

Long story short, I'm a sad woman.


Luckily, about 3 months ago, I randomly asked my brother to bring me to where my brother's fiancee is training for a martial art. It was the random most excited choice I've ever taken at that time.

Since I'm paying for all my needs now (since I got a job), I couldn't join my membership immediately.

About a month ago, I finally decided to commit to spend some money monthly for this activity.

It is Muay Thai.

I've only been training for six times, and I've been waaaay happier than what I used to be.

It is about the activity.

It is about the sweat.

It is about the soreness.

It is about breaking the chain.

It is about pushing the limit.

It is about the instant dopamine.

Yes, exercising makes your brain release dopamine. Doing something you love also does.

So now, the only thing that keeps me happy is doing Muay Thai. Training hard.

I used to think that my main goal for learning Muay Thai is to shape my body.

But I don't think that's true.

I've realized my main goal is actually: to be happy..

I love doing it because it makes me happy. It makes me believe in myself again.

I love doing it because it makes me happy. It helps me to get through my week all over again.

I love doing it because it makes me happy. It makes me love my life all over again.


Thank's for reading! See you again real soon!

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